What is a friend?

I taktau kenapa I ni suka sangat jaga hati orang lain. I'm the type of person who tries hard to make people like me, but in the end, bukannya jadi pun. Ye lah, I bet you macam, "Apahal doh desperate sangat nak kawan ni?" Eh tak, okay. Anyone who comes my way, I kawan je lah. Bukannya nak go up to every person and introduce myself kan. So hmm, yeah. No, I tak cari kawan kay. Takda maknanya lah I nak ramai kawan and popular and all that shit. I prefer being under the radar. So, don't misinterpret what I said. Too bad that's what everybody does nowadays. Misinterpret. Orang cakap lain, dia ingat orang tu cakap lain. We all do it; me, you, her, him, them. I ni bukannya nak buat emo post pun actually. Kadang-kadang people have their bad days kan, so this is one of mine. Bukannya apa, it's just that kadang-kadang I feel like a hypocrite. Semua orang cakap belakang, pastu depan-depan lain pulak. I am only human, so I pun sometimes macam tu. But somehow, as much as I cakap belakang pun, I still sayang diorang. Mengutuk is more of a 'melepaskan geram' session, you see. Everyone has their own flaws, so in the end pun terpaksa lah accept it kan. Sigh. But now, I feel as if sometimes, I don't really have REAL friends, y'know. Since Standard 1 until now ... entahlah. It's so hard to tell nowadays. No, not that I don't appreciate the friends that I have now. Heck, I love them to death! But yeah, entah, kadang-kadang macam rasa nak menangis je. I do have friends that actually make you feel unimportant; as if your presence wouldn't make any difference, but then, suddenly, they'll make you feel as if you're on top of the world. Cubalah bayangkan perasaan I macam mana at that time? I bet all of you have felt like that too kan. Most of you anyway. So yeah, sedih jugak lah macam tu. Human beings are only - after all - human beings, so I guess we can never expect too much out of each other. I learned that from 18 + years of living. Just don't expect too much, and you'll be alright. I guess.